Uninspired

That is me these days, I am uninspired for many things, blogging, cooking, going out with friends, etc. I don't know what happened, I am in a rut. So what exactly have I been up to since I can't seem to blog more than once a month? A little bit of everything.

Quick List:

-Making 5 Egyptian costumes, 100 swaps, poster size flag, hieroglyphs chart/puzzle, researching & gathering info about Egypt for the GS World Thinking Day.
- Speech for K
- Physical Therapy for K
- Softball practice for J & H almost daily between the two of them
- Dealing with mom stuff, trying to get her into an assisted living place vs nursing home, etc etc.
- Playgroup stuff
- Family stuff
- Random stuff, you know paying bills, house cleaning, laundry, etc.

Still trying to find some ME time in all of that. I desperately need to get out of the house more. I think I am slightly depressed these days and feel quite alone. I don't know what happened to me... I used to get out at least every other day for some type of play date, mno, mni, something. Now, not so much.

I think, well I know, a lot of it has to do with Kaitlyn.  Not blaming her, but it's hard to be around people, even friends, that have kids K's age (or even younger) who are doing, well everything.  :( I want to take her out more and probably should even take her walker, but what do you do at a play date with a walker and curious other kids. I know they will want to play with it, take it and run with it, and there will sit K, wondering what the hell just happened.  I feel so sad for her right now, she needs interaction with kids her age, but she'll get left behind since she can't just run with them when they choose to go somewhere else.

Will things ever get better? Will I ever feel like we can get out and go and not worry about other kids or parents and what they do/say/think? I sure hope so, but until then, I guess I'll continue to be a hermit and hope that a spot opens in the EI playgroup soon.