Changes & Reflection

Changes are coming!

The weather is changing, it's getting "cooler" and actually kind of cold the next few nights, the days are getting shorter, the sun sets by 5pm, but it's getting to be that time of year. The holiday season if you will.  It seems once school starts, the year starts to fly by until January and then it slows a little bit. 

When January comes this time, there will be some changes in my life too. I am stepping down from organizing my moms group.  If I continued until Feb 14th, I would be organizing for 7 years. Do you hear me? 7 YEARS! My middle daughter is going to be 8 in March, so the majority of her life, I've run a playgroup.  Crazy.  To think she was just 10 months old when I joined and she's going to be in 3rd grade next year, makes it all so bittersweet.

While there has been lots of ups and downs during my 7 years of organizing, I really did enjoy it.  During those years there were hundreds of happy moms and of course some that didn't agree with me or left for whatever reason, but I did my job, I helped them make friendships with other moms and ultimately that is the purpose of the group.

The last several years has really made me realize how important friendship is.  I can have hundreds of acquaintance but only a small group of true friends. That's OK with me, I love my friends, even though I don't get to see them as often as I would like, they helped me when I needed it the most. They will never know how grateful I was and still am for their help, compassion, advice and love.  So those of you reading this and you know who you are, THANK YOU! <3 p="p">

I hope in 5, 10 or 15 years I can look back at this experience and say, it was still worth it!

Hours

There simply is not enough hours in the day to get everything done. No matter how much I try to get it all done, it just doesn't happen.  I think I have (or used to!) pretty decent time management skills, but lately I feel like a failure.

The house isn't clean enough, I don't spend enough quality time with the kids, I don't get enough meetup stuff done, I don't get enough girl scout stuff done, I don't get a lot of quality time with my husband, friends or just time to myself. I hate it. I feel like most of my time is spent accomplishing much of nothing. I used to coupon, and what a time consuming job that was, even though we were saving some money.  Now I primarily shop at Aldis and no couponing and save money without the hour scouring the internet looking for the best deal and coupons to match.  You think that would have save me some time, but I managed to fill it with other stuff.

I want, need, to do better at managing my time again, I feel like I am missing out on so much because I can't get my head straight. I know my kid's activities aren't going to slow down, so other things must. I need to spend less time on the internet (yet here I sit blogging) and more time doing things that I've been putting off. I have an online course I need to take for girl scouts, and I haven't been motivated yet to do it. I did just get the info the other day though, so it's not like I've been putting it off long. I do however, have to have it done by Nov 10th, as it's for an event we're going to.

This particular issue is going on my "New Year's Resolutions" errr, goals list.  It must be done, something has to give.  There will be some things changing within the new year as well, and I am hoping that will help relieve some of my stress.

Do you get it all done? Do you feel accomplished at the end of the day?

Three

Today would have been the 3rd birthday of the sweet little angel in Heaven had I not miscarried.  Here is a post I wrote on what would have been the 1st birthday.  Remembering and it's still fresh in my mind as it were yesterday.

Tonight I say a prayer for all my friends and family who have angels in Heaven waiting on them.