One Year Ago Today

I came to the realization that I was miscarrying the baby I had just found out about on Feb 1st. My little one would have been approximately 4 months old today, had I carried to full term. I am sad about it, and I have friends who had babies around the time my little angel would have been born, but I am trying to not dwell on this.  I am happy for them, happy they did not have to go thru the pain I did and happy they get to hold their little ones.

However sad I am today, I am trying to rejoice in the fact that I am carrying a sweet little girl who is due in about 13 weeks.  It's been a hard and stressful pregnancy but in May it will have all been worth it. There are days I am still paranoid something terrible is going to happen, especially when I notice she's not moved much or that I just haven't felt her move.  Then it's like she knows, and she moves around for me and I breathe a sigh of relief.

I knew Valentine's Day would be a little hard and I was right, but we awoke to a beautiful snowy white ground.  As I sat listening to the girls being excited about the snow and anxious to check out their gifts, it made today much better.

RIP My Sweet Angel Baby