Sunday, February 14, 2010

One Year Ago Today

I came to the realization that I was miscarrying the baby I had just found out about on Feb 1st. My little one would have been approximately 4 months old today, had I carried to full term. I am sad about it, and I have friends who had babies around the time my little angel would have been born, but I am trying to not dwell on this.  I am happy for them, happy they did not have to go thru the pain I did and happy they get to hold their little ones.

However sad I am today, I am trying to rejoice in the fact that I am carrying a sweet little girl who is due in about 13 weeks.  It's been a hard and stressful pregnancy but in May it will have all been worth it. There are days I am still paranoid something terrible is going to happen, especially when I notice she's not moved much or that I just haven't felt her move.  Then it's like she knows, and she moves around for me and I breathe a sigh of relief.

I knew Valentine's Day would be a little hard and I was right, but we awoke to a beautiful snowy white ground.  As I sat listening to the girls being excited about the snow and anxious to check out their gifts, it made today much better.

RIP My Sweet Angel Baby


Alex said...

Sending you some happy thoughts. This weekend has been hard on a lot of people. So many are in pain ... it's sad.


The Workman Family said...

<3 The anniversaries are always hard. ((hug))

Ambitious Blonde said...

Thanks Alex :)

They really are Devan, I know it will get easier but some days are really hard.

Nicole said...

I'm so sorry, Frances. I'm sure this weekend has been difficult.

Tracy said...

Frances- these kinds of dates are so hard. Thinking of you and your little angel!

Ambitious Blonde said...

Thanks ladies, I am feeling better this week. :)