Cycles

I feel like we're in a vicious cycle. Just when things go better and we're getting things paid off, BAM something happens and we're back down the hole again. Sigh.

My dear husband is due a promotion at work, which would help A LOT, however they told him no because his family issues the past 2 yrs. Um, sorry, I wish that I could take it all back where my child was not born with SB and need 2 surgeries and multiple dr appointments spread out of the last 2 years requiring more than 3ish plus weeks off of work, and I wish I could take back my mom having her major stroke, making him take more time off, but it's just not possible and he should not be punished for that. He worked from home/hospitals as much as he could so not to get to far behind, but it's not enough. So yes I am thankful he has a job, they didn't let him go or anything like that, but he really needs to get out of there, they are not going to promote him no matter what he does, no matter how many trainings they send him to, so he can come back and train the people there, he's stuck.  GRRR

So now, he's looking for a new job, to move to another company, because after putting in 10 years at the current company, they are no longer a good fit for us in many ways. So any local friends that know of some openings let me know, procurement/buyer, logistics or finance is the type he is looking for. Thanks.

I am sure that some reading this (who do not know me or our situation), say for me to go to work, ha, if only it were that simple. I am working very PT at a local church, I'll be lucky to get around $100 a month (and that's on a good month) so while it's helpful to pay for gas, it's not enough to substantially change things.  We're not able to just put K in a daycare, not with her medical issues and honestly I don't know a job I could do to pay enough to cover the cost of full time care for 3 kids (1 with special needs/med issues) in the summer and still have money left.  No point in working to only pay daycare, so right now me staying home is the best option.  I need to look back into the babysitting world again and check the listings online to see if I can find something that will work with our crazy schedule.

So for now, we're trying to cut back on as much as we can, eat cheaper meals, shop more at Aldis and try to use coupons as much as possible for things at other stores. We're trying to save on gas, making several trips out of one, especially when driving across town for softball games and school pickup/drop off, visiting my mom.  So much of our money each month is spent on gas and food. There's just nothing left and barely enough to get by :( I hate living like this. 

To top it off, besides the crazy outstanding number of medical bills we have, my hearing aids have started messing up and it's really time to replace, been 5 years, but that means coming up with a little over $3000 to cover the cost.  Isn't life grand?

I know God is not punishing us, and the saying he'll only give you what you can handle, well I am questioning my ability these days to handle anything....